I struggle a lot with my appearance. I was the kid who got bullied growing up because of my looks. It hurt my confidence more than I could express with words. It was tourture I had to endure. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. The worst part was when I started to believe what they were saying. I started seeing myself as ugly, and different. It was crushing me. I decided to speak up and get help. But my school at the time said there was nothing they could do. Since the boys would primarily bully me on my walk home from school. So I took matters into my own hands. I stood up for myself. I fought. I learned how to fight, and if anyone insulted me I would become violent. Only after I hit them, the school suddenly decided that this matter was worth their time. The way they saw it, I was the problem. Because I used violence instead of psychological warfare. I was suspended. However when my mom heard what happened she personally went to to schools board office and demanded punishment for the boys. She single handedly got 5 grade 6 boys suspended. They left me alone after that.
Moral is, I may have gone about it the wrong way, but I made a decision to stop being a victim. I stood my ground. I refused to let anyone tell me how I should feel about myself.
I still have issues with who I am, but I’m dealing with those feelings.